Sunday, June 10, 2007Nvm, i found the liberty to copy and paste, haha....duh
Haiz, tom is my dooms-day, gt bio pract exam at 9 to 10 am, and i haven even study a single sentence from the lecture notes, serious,.... coz i've been busying focusing on my clinical practical exam so much tat, i failed it....BUmmer rite...well, i dont think i deserve it though... same goes to the others who had the same lecturer assessing them for tat skills....Its a wonder...all those whom she failed r only malays....being racist, there's a possibility....i only found out after everyone ask everyone.... guess its not our luck tis time...NVM, there's still the retest...hopefully i can pass tat one... Why i failed....hmmm, let me see, i'm a systematic type of guy...i do things in an orderly manner...so basically, i learn and understand things from step 1 all the way to step 10...and if u're to ask me from step 1, then jump to step 4 and continue back to step 2 then jump again to step 8.....even AH Meng the orang utan is goin to smack u in the head, wat more me....Anyway, the highlight of the week, or the month, or maybe the year...is i'm goin to haf my Traffic Police Test tom, and after 5 long mths of bookin, its finally here.... its either pass or fail.... all i know is i'm confident of drivin after goin for three straight revision lessons.... Hopefully, i dont break my parents heart and wallet by failing it.... To make things worst, i cant handle another failure in my life...for tis week tat is....I already failed clinical, bio....like duh, obvius failure...haf to struggle to pass it tis semester...all hopes for the end of semester exam, bio prac cover 35% and main exam is 65%, still gt chance to pass, bt so far my record, i fail my bio each sem which i fail my bio prac...so gd luck to me.... so back to failure....i already fail one, comin soon another one, and if TP also same( touch and go, touch and go)....total HEART BREAK....Anyway, admist all this, i just need someone to be there for me...emotionally...physically....a ear to listen to my problems, a pair of wings to lift me up to my two feet again, the air to rejuvenate me to my fullest of confidence.... its true, i haf frens, close frens, bestest of frens, brothers... Hairul, Nathan, Sufyan, FArhan, JAi, Sham, Wak, Kak Leha, Aniza, Syahidah, Hastuty, Izyan, Miza, Hairi and many others for me to turn to, bt there is tis sort of feelins where u need to reveal to someone closer to u....U wan her to be there when u need her, for u to be needed when she feels the same too.... I'm confused...i'm nt embarrased to say tis bt sometimes i feel like crying in my sleep.... too much is goin through my mind, so much tat i dont think i can handle it anymore...I may seem ok, bt inside me, nobody knows....till u see me again, take care
