Thursday, April 26, 2007Life in school haf been the same....and i'm happi to declare tat i haf turn into a new leaf,....cant figure out wat i'm trying to imply? Well, my attendance is till in 100% and since its already two wks since school started, its a record to be proud of, haha..... Hmmm.....I cant seem to understand girls...still, haha.... One moment, they wan to play hard to get, next thing is they will be all over you, haha...nt on me ah....just as a whole picture... Bt nothing personal... Updates on the girl.... guess, there is still no progress...totally nothing... gt her no. , gt her msn, gt her frenster, bt i still cannot get through to her... Yan told me the only way is to meet this girl personnally, bt, i dont know where she lives exactly, where she always hang out in school, where she hang out outside school, heck, the last time i saw her was like one wk plus.... since then, no sight of her at all.... She may even have been cease to exist at all in the first place. Bt i will heed the peeps advice and strive, dont give up... 'Kau lum buat apa2 pun, kau da mengaku kalah...' Anyway, peeps around me who are close to my heart, are having rltnship probs... break-ups, calling off wedding, quarrels, third-party...... All i can say is, in every relationships, there is bound to be obstacles...its either u fall,pick urself up and be a stronger couple or u can just gif up and lose the fight...thus, losing everythin u haf been fighting for.... If our parents can continue on, get married, have children and still be happily married, wat makes us any weaker....We haf their genes pe...haha. Anyway, nt trying to say tat i da fikir jauh, bt they are one example right in front of our eyes....learn from them... Ya i know, its easier to say then done....Bt, like wat good frens do, i try to help as much as i can, nt to be the extra person, bt just to give advices when i haf any.... So guys, take care, dont get stress.....Live LIFE to The Fullest....Esp with ur loved ones.... ----Remember THE Name----
8:36 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007Sorri guys for the absence of entries tis past few days..... i've told u all already tat i'll be busy, haha.... Anyway.... first wk of school is ok, nt bad... my new class, NR0608.... they are kinda quiet, compared to my ex-class.... my class will be like answering qns even b4 the lecturers ask, bt the new class, is like, the teacher will ask ard and after like 5 min, she will resort to callin up names... my fellow classmate, who i call scorpion, also same case as me, havin tat xtra sem, ya, he's the one who will be answering the qns.... As for me, i am havin this culture-shock thingy... coz, to those who knew me, i'm always noisy in class... There was this one time in class, i was sittin with hairi and izzat, the lecturer ask qns, and i keep shouting out the right ans, bt its was like she ignored all my ans la eh..., feelin fed up already, i changed my mind and instead shouting out all my crappy ans... and ironically, tat idiotic lecturer can hear my stupid ans, and told me tat if i give such stupid ans, i have to sit outside lab... like wtf... first of all, does polytechnic still carry out tat stupid punishment, secondly, is this lecturer deaf or is she just being bias... Enough of her.....anywae, i just found out something very funny and very annoying crazy... maybe something frustating too... the story goes like this... i had tis thing for this girl who i saw at the smoking alley, i bump into her at the train the same day again,....all this happen early 2006...after tat day, i made up my mind to try to find out who tis girl is and want to get to know her ah... So i always skip lectures just to be at the smokin alley, went through frens friendster list just to find her, bt ever since tat day, i nvr met her... at all........ the the funny part ah... like, is she an angel or wat... days, months have gone past... i knda forgot abt her... then one day, my bro, who kinda always having flings, told me he gt to know this girl from SCL of NYP, and he is chasing after her...i was like, so.... like normal for him ah... days ltr, he told me, he is already going out wif this girl... i pay no attention to it, he ask me whether i wan to know this girl, bt i told him i gt better things to do... Bt like always, tat rltnship was off....He's back to the single life, chasing after other girls...like i predicted.... So life goes on....until last last wk..., i was going thorugh my frens frienster pictures with no ulterior motives, then i stumbled upon the 'one', the 'girl''s pic.... so i asked my fren who she was, after getting all my info, i found out she is from SCL, yr 2....i didnt suspect anything.... then i asked another fren recently, and she was suprised, coz she tot i know her, so the next thing she said, solves everything..... the answer, i'm the idiot...... 'La, kau kan kenal dia' 'Huh, apa kau mepek? Kalau aku kenal dia, aku nk tanya kau lagi buat pe...' 'Dia kan selalu lpak ngan abg kau dulu' 'Yg dia nk lpak ngan abg aku buat apa?' ' Mane aku tahu, kau tanya la abg kau' So i asked, and guess wat.... all along, she was right there for me to know, and being the typical idiot....i had to ignore tat fact....haiz.... Ya, She's my bro's ex..... So wat am i going to do nw?......Hmmm...it may sound crazy, but i am after my bro's ex....
----Remember The Name----
7:20 AM
Saturday, April 14, 2007New semester, new timetable and new classmates, bt still same old yr 2 student.....haiz.... haha, i kinda regret havin to repeat one semester, and thus will be having an extra semester unlike the normal 6 semester...... Bt look at the bright side....get to spend more time at the Smokin Alley, with the SAC, haha, proud to be a member..... also, get to make new frens and feel alot senior to the juniors who just enter NYP..... Anywae, i wan to 'dedicate' this entry to my previous grp HS0518 classmates..... wont be in the same class as them anymore, bt the 3 sem or is it 4 sem??? nt sure, bt i enjoyed every moment we had in class, tat is wen i come for them ah.... the bunch of us, which is ard 25 students i think, always been noisy, lively, fun, smart, lame, and many more, have been on every lecturers nerves...... Yet they always end up enjoying the time time spend teachin us.... we appreciate them too, hopefully ah.... ANyway.....this entry is abt the 25 stud and nt the lecturers, some other time maybe, haha...... even though sometime we have our own cliques here and there bt whenever we are in the tut room or clinical lab....we all share one heart and soul.... our first yr and half of 2nd yr, we had mdm ho wee ling as our mentor.... she's one adorable lecturer, haha.... she taught us alot of stuffs, and her constant nagging are missed till nw.... i still remember the time when we had tis bbq thing at jln kayu, organized by our ever so hardworking mdm ho.... all i can say is, she is one dedicated lecturer who cares for her students like her own children..... anyway back to my ex-classmates, all of them will be promoted to yr 3 tis upcomin 16 april.... congrats to them... hopefully all of u will achieve the main goal, the DIPLOMA IN NURSING.... Gd LUck..... ya, i know, the dedication kinda short, so maybe ltr or tom, i will write the second part....tat is if i am free ah...which i always am, only the problem is whether i'm lazy or nt....haha... See YA ----Remember The Name----
12:01 AM
Monday, April 09, 2007Here i am, blogging again, had a rough wk, nw me and my father are nt in talking terms, we cant even face each other..... guess i deserved it.... I even heard him mentioning to my mum, saying he doesn't even care whther i and my bro are his sons or nt..... It was a misunderstanding, i had a breakdown, and instead of crying, it wasn't a breakdown, it was more of an outburst, i lashed out at my mum...no, there was no physical contact, bt alot of shoutin here and there, and it happened at 1am..... my father was angry caused i raised my voice, and i was angry from him getting involved, and i guess, he had every right to... i almost had a fight, and fight as in physically fight with him, if not for my mum holding me back.... At tat moment, it was as if, i was the devil, it was as if, the devil suddenly took control of my body, every i said and do, and nt my intention......it was just coming out of my mouth.... i even threaten to go away and nvr to come back to my house again.... i went down my block, feeling nothin but fury and anger.... hatred towards something but i dont know wat it was.... every thing i saw seems nt rite.... Few hours haf pass, my guys, jai and sham, and also my bro, talk to me, and calmness start to fill my mind back.... i start to feel differently, i feel regret, i feel disappointed..... if only i could turn back time..... i went back home after a nite full of remorse and much thinking..... their advice was tat i go home, haf a good rest and think bout it again, try apologising.... Bt i like i said once, and i will say it again, no matter wat the situation is, 'Sorry Seems To Be The HArdest Word'...... Guess i haf to live life like it is and hope things will turn out better, even it is just small, i will apreciate it alot...... PS: As for my previous post, abt breaking girls' hearts, i hate the feelin, or even doin it and i dont think its something to be proud of.....
1:40 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
I dont know wat happened or wat went into me yesterday nite... bt i sure know wat the outcome was.... i regretted having tat attitude or acting tat way.... you all will be asking wat hapeened, wat happened.... guess, my parents were the victim because of my outburst.... i dont even know wat i writin now..... everything is just all mixed up in my mind.... i'm sitting in front of my com, staring blankly and typing stuffs which goes through my mind rite nw.... Hw i wished schools starts sooner and i will have nothing better to do or think other than schools.....I guess My life Sux, tats all.... will be updating abt wat happen soon....
8:03 AM
Friday, April 06, 2007Nt sure whose fault it was, bt i sure regretted the outcome...its been days since i last tok with her on the phone, or even chat with her online.... Probably its my ego, or the fact tat, i over-reacted and didnt realize wat i just did... all i know nw is, i wan everything to be the same agian, back to normal, forget everythin tat had happens.... Maybe we can even start anew.... 'Hi, my name is zul, wats yours?' Nw i'm nt sure wat i should do, should i call her up and apologize to her sincerely? Sould i pretend nothing had happen, its normal for this things to happen....or should i... just lose contact with her.... All i can say is, 'Sorry seems to be the hardest word.....'
5:15 AM
Sunday, April 01, 2007Congrats to Liverpool, Manchester United and Chelsea for their victories yesterday night.... Personnally, i'm an Arsenal Fan and proud to be one...maybe, nw is nt the right time to confess after their recent losses....Bt i'm still am faithful and will carry on supporting them.... why i support arsenal, well, its simple...their extravagant way of playing the game of football... maybe nt the way they handled authorities and the media...bt their slick passing and quick counter-attacks, their one-touches and one-two passings will amaze every fans, even from supporters of other clubs... Currently their form have dropped maybe due to the fact tat henry, van persie and walcott are out injured, bt tats nt a good excuse for the results they are getting....well, we will see hw the young gunners cope in other upcoming games.... Btw, to all those liverpool fan who are laughin their ass of to the arsenal fans, well, remember the times where arsenal beat them three straight games in this season and together will yesterday game, arsenal still lead with 11 goals to 9 goals liverpool scored, bt to the other liverpool fans, congrats to the victory, your team deserve it with the way they played yesterday and crouch's amazing form...
