Thursday, June 21, 2007If u guys haf been reading my blog, i ever mentioned bout tis girl who caught my eye and my heart along with it... The one whom i tried so hard to get to know her, for one whole yr, and turns out to be my brother's ex and the hurtful part was, it was only for 3days. My bro still had the cheek to say, ' abg cuma nk fling je ngan dia, tk interested ah dgn pompuan mcm dia'.... translation: ' i only wan to play wif her heart, i gt no interest in her at all...' It sounds so bad.... So u all remember the girl i'm toking bout nw? And now, i guess the wheels haf revovles ard, on another person...and to make sense wat i'm saying..... My brother played wif her heart, and nw she played wif mine.... what happened.....? ok, start from the beginning of 2nd part,.... i finally gt through to tis girl, from her new frenster acc,... i can sense she stills love my bro... anyway, she added my bro's frenster acc, and from there, i start makin my move... Everything was goin smoothly, she gave me her no. and we became frens....had long conversations on phone, and i told her everything.... from the start to nw.... She took everything well....Even ask me to accompany her through the nite, which i am more then willing to....woke her up in morning.... i had made plans to meet her one day, maybe wif frens, then ltr just the two of us.... Suddenly, like an epic movie.... it comes to an end....it was so sudden, feels like, u know, bird dropping hit u right in the face, and u left wonderin, wat did i do wrong to the bird.... She suddenly stopped everything, seriously, if u dont believe me, u can ask her urself....tats wat i tried to do until nw, i finally gave up.... She stop msging me, replying my msg, callin me, answering my call.... i tried to get answers from her... i keep msging her, keep callin her....all to no avail.... u cannot imagine wat i've been through tis past few days.... i tried to rent a car, to keep my mind of her....and tat, was also a failure.... at first, i tot, maybe she lost her phone or her phone was stolen...so i tried to confirm it by using someone else hp to msg her....suprisingly she replied.... tat shocked me so much....straightaway i msg her, saying i nd answers...she replied wat? ....can u believed it, her last msg to me was a three letter word which actualli doesnt exist in a proper english spelling dictionary.-wad-. i was so heartbroken and depressed.... SOme of my guys told me, ' Aku rase ni pompuan mmg sengaja ah...dia mmg nk buat pat kau apa yg abg ko buat pat dia' and ' Dia agaknya tk nk lyn ko psl dia takot akan jadi same, mane lagi tumpah lauk kalau tk ke nasi, dia ingat krg brothers rollin2 pompuan' translation: ' I think tis girl wants revenge on ur brother by doin it to u' and ' Maybe she thinks tat both u brothers r the same....rollin girls to each other' Bt seriously guys, and girls, those who know me....am i like tat....haf i been a heartbreaker? i know i did mention it in my few early blog, bt so far i've been a heartbroken... u all think i' m like my bro? if yes, pls tell me, i will change my personality.... haiz.... till tday, i still haven get any answers for her yet... to think my bro got her heart to easily only to end up with me being 'dumped' by the same girl he dumped..... ya i know, she and me haf no connections yet, we r just frens, bt frens dont suddenly disappear just like tat, i treated her as a fren also, i didnt rush into things like hw i used to last time.... I JUST WANT ANSWERS Nw, i've deleted her no. ....all her msgs.... bt the memories of wat we used to talk abt...the dreams i had planned.... a whole yr of wanting something to happen btwn me and the girl...nw all gone.....just like tat... still some things are still hard to forget....haiz.... I dont why its happening to me, bt the only mild conclusion i can make up rite nw is, maybe its retribution of wat my brother did to all the many2 girls' heart he broke.... and all the retribution is taking on me..... I guess tats wat people call, family ties cannot be broken. ' Air dicincang tk akan putus' I'm nt saying all tis so tat u all will start hating my brother...bt its more of, in tis story, he played the biggest part in everything.... Till then, u guys take care aite....dont be like me...life for me haf no meaning anymore, bt i still wont resort to commitin suicide, dont worry...i know u guys will miss me...haha. ----RememberTHE Name----
